He is always there for us

Although I'm exhausted and I feel stressed I have no reason to be.

So you know how I said I had two papers due today? I typed one yesterday and then came to school today and realized I only had one due. Unfortunately it was the one I hadn't finished yet.

But good news I just barely finished it a couple minutes ago. I proofread it at least a million times so that I could improve it from my last two and I'm to a point where I am proud to call it my paper. I don't know how much better my score will be but oh well... it's life.

Now to the main reason why I am blogging today. I really need to get this down now or else I will forget something. I'm sitting in the library right now. Let's hope I can keep this together as I type this.

I started crying during my dance class today.

Reason?
My teacher gave us all blocks and stickers. We had to write on the sticker one of the things that the evil voice in our head tells us when we're feeling down about our dancing. *I can't tell you what I wrote or else I Will start crying.* Once we had it written down we stuck it to our block. Ms. Kathleen then had us dance with it. She had us do a sequence we learned in the past and switch the block from hand to hand.

It is a lot harder than it sounds.

Afterwards she told us how the block represents darkness and in order to put it down but we had to replace it with light. We came up with a statement to replace it and put the block down.

We then danced again not letting the tought into our head.
This is when I started crying.
I was focusing so hard on my light statement that I was messing the sequence up. This made the thought come back into my head. There was no way I could keep it out.

I had to go pick up my block again.

Kathleen asked me what I could do to make sure that it didn't happen again. I gave a good response but I knew that at that moment it wouldn't work for me.

As I was thinking I realized something. I was trying to do it all on my own. I was trying so hard that I was distracting myself from the real purpose, letting go of what was holding us down and just dancing. I was holding myself down even more.

I realized that I couldn't do it on my own. I really only had to tell myself my statment of light and then let it be. In doing that I was letting Christ into my dancing and allowing him to share my burden.

This applies to everything in our lives. We can't try to get rid of the dark things by ourselves. We have to decide what we're going to do and then turn to our Savior and let him help us through. He will always be there for us so long as we let him in.